les voix: For/Getting｜Re/Membering

My dears:

This letter is going be a formal apology for all of you.
Lately, I’ve been mistaking too much on you,
though I never speak of this in this way ever,
I still have to admit that I’ve long been spoiled,
and I really feel sorry right at this time to be like that.

So and so, I want to try my best to present my apology,
and I wish this time my words can still work a little bit.
Regardless to say how much I need and care about you,
but all of this cannot make my carelessness forgivable.

Being too spoiled by your tolerance and love,
I may sometimes cross the line I was supposed to stick to,
and I always pretended that everything was fine,
although I should know it’d somewhat hurt feelings.

Cracking jokes rudely, making decisions negligently,
complaining badly, and excusing myself too much,
I believe all of this are killing you day by day,
and I didn’t notice what I’ve been doing so wrong.

Shame on me that I was even elder than you,
but I now have to beg for your forbearance.
Last week when I thoughtlessly resign from the job,
I noticed that I was saying sorry to Nick too many times.
The last time I knew I kind of crossed TH’s bottom line,
I just felt conscious of how much I should be tired of.
Until the last night I made a stupid joke on William,
which I knew it was more than lame but I still did it.

After reading Bill’s newest updated note,
I just realized that these days how pathetic I have been.
I am so loved and cared but I didn’t know to treasure it.
I am so protected and endured but I took it for granted.
Now I admit that I have been long too spoiled,
and I just forgot how and what a friend should behave.

Getting too used to being around with you,
so that I almost ignored how lucky to be buddied up.
Thanks to being reminded by William’s words,
I just awake to everything I’ve been doing so improperly,
and come to ask for another forgiveness from you,
because I don’t see how I can live and walk on
without you and all of your supports...

Best regards,

P.

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Spoiled (by Joss Stone)

I kinda thought that I’d be better off by myself
I’ve never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever
Love somebody else
And now I don’t know what I left you for

See I thought that I could replace you
He can’t love me the way you do
‘Till now I never knew
Baby

I’m spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What’s the point it’s just a waste of time
I’m spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don’t want to live without you in my life
I’m spoiled

I tried to tell myself that I’d be over you in a week or two
But baby that was ‘bout a year ago
I’ve never seen the word love so personified as I do with you
And that is why I just can’t let go, oh no

Spoil me

And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there’s room for someone else in my heart
There ain’t no way I’m getting over you
I don’t know what I’ve been trying to prove
I’m hopeless, helpless when it comes to you