les voix: For/Getting｜Re/Membering

Besides congratulation and appreciation,
there's always something wrong,
and the point is: you wouldn't understand why so!?

Once you are negated,
then there are not too many more opportunities.
Once you make a wrong,
even you've made lots of things right,
no one would take it evenly.
My best friend told me that:
“That’s life of the real world!”

It might be harsh and intolerable;
it may hurt feelings and such trust,
but I still have to take it,
like every other man needs to face with the truth.

Somebody called me a reflected surface,
meaning that I can be whatever others want,
but it doesn’t mean I can reflect myself,
so I take over, I tolerate and I hide sometimes.

Definitely I feel sorry and I did the apology thing,
but it doesn’t indicate I still can bear to be degraded.
I didn’t ask for any further recognition and support,
but at least need not to neglect everything I’ve done.
It’s unfair and unequal to be treated.

And now, besides congratulation and appreciation,
I cannot come up with any positive terms,
and feel so discouraged but hating.
Maybe that’s what the lessons teach me,
and maybe just take it as a man before being successful.

Go ahead, to myself and my best buddies,
but not to anyone ever promising not to be bureaucratic,
this god damn world and god damn reality,
when fame and money means everything, it sucks.