les voix: For/Getting｜Re/Membering

My dear Jesus and Father,
I'm gonna tell you the truth, even you knew it already,
but plz, just let me speak to you frankly...

Never predicted that it would be like this.
Never supposed that it should be like that.
So I was gonna be crushed by the crushing crush.
The crush crushingly crushes me accordingly.

Never thought that it could be like this.
Never assumed that it might be like that.
So I ran, I escaped, I was deemed to be sad.
The surprise surprised me surprisingly.
And now I am shocked by the overwhelming shock.

Who is that amazing, who made me so amazed?
Who burnt the fire and forgot to extinguish it?
Who left it burning and left the ash?
Who fired the crazy fire, and now I'm fired?
Is the hireling mate hired to kill me?

Never dreamed that it oughtta be like this.
Never found that it gotta be like that.
I am overwhelmingly overwhelmed.
The worst is I won't be any longer worse.
The best is I can't be any more better.

It was the last goodbye I could say again.
To you and you all is too damned silly.
To me and all of mine are mainly upset.
So let it be the last one we haven't paid.

It is the first crush I hoped not to exist.
To whom and I is undoubtedly unfair and shamed.
You will see and feel, even I hide it perfectly.
Let it be and just like wind, blown away from me.

Never dream even merely to dream a little dream.
Nothing would be more embarrassing and freaky.
I am the normal, the common, unlike the freaks.

Don't drive me sucked and piss me off.
Shut up your laughter and bring me backa reality.
I'll appreciate and say thank you very much.
Due that I don't wanna be crushed by the Crush.

If you knew me, you will know me.
Unless you don't know me, then you'll never knew it.
Let's see and let's feel how shit it is.
Let's cut it down and turn it a newer leaf.

Sincerely,
The helpless Me